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Alistair - Portrait of What He Sees by Cei-Ellem Alistair - Portrait of What He Sees by Cei-Ellem
The instructor looked at the painting for another minute. The technique was superb, and it really did look as if his student was standing there against the wall rather than kneeling beside it, putting the final touches on the painting, but that's not what made him frown. Shaking his head, he looked down at the young man as he finished his project. "I thought we talked about this, Alistair. You were supposed to paint your portrait on the wall, without embellishment, and certainly not in such a grotesque way."

"That's how I see myself." Alistair looked up at his teacher through his bangs, hoping to blur out some of the details of how he
really saw him. The man was nice enough, but through Alistair's eyes, his skin was covered in cancerous boils. Whatever the reason, the artist didn't want to know. "Should I... start over?"

"No. No, it's fine." His instructor sighed, rubbing his hand across his face. Alistair got the distinct impression that a multitude of the boils were bursting, spraying puss everywhere, and he instinctively flinched away. This only made his instructor sigh again. "You're supposed to be working past your hallucinations."

"I know," Alistair said quietly, looking away. "I just... couldn't. Not this time."

"Why?"

"Gideon's watching." Alistair turned towards his portrait. He stood, moving in front of the painting and mirroring its pose. "He thinks I look like this too..."


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Thought I'd throw in a little story this time. Alistair again, my schizophrenic character for an upcoming Dresden Files RPG. This is why he doesn't like looking at people (or himself for that matter).

By the way, Gideon is his older brother. He murdered him when he was only ten years old because he looked like a monster. Whether the Gideon who was "watching" him is the real one or a psychotic hallucination is debatable.

DAZ|Studio with some pre- and postwork in Photoshop
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crazyBookworm013 Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is incredibly haunting. I may never get his image out of my head. Poor Alistar, he kind of reminds of me of a human Gabriel.
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Cei-Ellem Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
*tilts head* Really? Gabriel? How so?

And I apologize if he now haunts you ^^;.
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crazyBookworm013 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I guess it's the goriness of it all.
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Cei-Ellem Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Goriness reminds you of Gabriel? I'm guessing that has to do with the whole Death thing...
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crazyBookworm013 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
...i'm not sure...
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Cei-Ellem Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Heh ^^;. Well be forewarned: there are more pictures of Alistair to come.
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vera-san Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
We learned a bit about schizoprenia in Health today. Poor Alistair...that really stinks. But on the bright side, his portrait is good. :'D
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Cei-Ellem Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I've been refreshing my knowledge of schizophrenia. I can't play it too accurately, since it would get in the way of the game, but I think I can manage a decent representation of it. Not that any of my friends would know; I'm the one with a BA in English/Psychology.

Thanks for the :+fav:. And you know, some of his "hallucinations" are not imaginary at all...
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vera-san Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Very true. It's important to do research on such things before making a character with a disorder or illness, but overplaying it can be bad too. Plus artistic license and all that.
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Cei-Ellem Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Yes, artistic license for the crazy artist, heh.
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UltimaMage578 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2012
Is it kind of bad that my mind flashes to creepypasta?

Anyways, I like the story and such and how we go in depth.
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Cei-Ellem Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
*snortlaugh* Oh geeze. Yes, Alistair's hallucinations would be very tasty creepypasta, I think.

And thanks. I'm slowly fleshing out the nature of his hallucinations, and it would make sense that one of them is the brother he killed. Although I'll leave it to Tristan (our GM for the game) whether or not that particular one is real.
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UltimaMage578 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2012
I blame it on the fact I've been reading creepypasta a lot here recently. I'll be avoiding my pokemon games.

Ooohhh sweet.

I now kind of wonder how Ali sees your other characters, or even us, the viewers.
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Cei-Ellem Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I'm slowly working on renders of the other characters too. I know he sees the only female character in what her true form would be if she went full fae.
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UltimaMage578 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2012
Ohh cool. So I guess the fae chick is the love interest?
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Cei-Ellem Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Hell no, for three reasons:
  1. Alistair's schizophrenia is half biological (he really does have the condition) and half faerie prank. He doesn't know who, how, or why, but someone (or many someones) among the fae decided to damage his Sight, so it is always half-open. When a spellcaster views the world using his Sight, he sees everything as it is, was, and will be, in excruciatingly vivid, fantastical detail. The mortal mind can scarcely handle this for even the shortest amount of time, even if the information so gained is invaluable.

    Now think of poor Alistair, who can never turn his off. There's a reason he's called fae-mad.

  2. When Alistair chances to see Abby (a changeling, that is half-fae) with his Sight, during those times when he can't force himself to ignore it, she is horrifyingly beautiful. Yes, fae are lovely creatures, but they are dangerous.

  3. Even if Alistair got past those first two issues, the final nail in the coffin involves the faerie Courts. Abby is one of the Winter Court, while Alistair's madness was brought on by the fae of the Summer Court. In short, oil and water.


That, and Abby finds Alistair way creepy. ^^;
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UltimaMage578 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2012
Hey it was only a guess. But it shows that you did fully flesh out your character. And the mythology.

Still, poor Ali...

I'm way too sympathetic too him.
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Cei-Ellem Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
The mythos is already there, for the most part, I'm just adding to it. The Sight and the different faerie Courts were already part of the Dresdenverse.

Looks like I'll be putting up a lot about these characters...
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